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[serindrana]

Hm, so, yay for breaking down twice in as many days. I really hope it's just the stress of the last two (ZOMG TWO) weeks of school approaching. It would tie in with my indigestion (lulz), at least.

I agreed to see another therapist, though. While I adore Dr. Sandy (mostly because she adores me, I'll admit), she's not what I need in a therapist. Stacey wants me to see a psychiatrist, though. And apparently, it's not my decision on whether or not I take medication. ._. Screw that. I seriously don't think I'm bad enough, consistently enough, to warrant that, and any psychiatrist who tries to DEMAND I be medicated is just pushing prescriptions. Just. Ugh.

And of course, Stacey let it slip that she thinks I might be bi-polar. Yeah, I can see some of the symptoms, but none are bad enough to warrant a diagnosis. Just like how I have a lot of the signs of narcissistic personality disorder, but none are bad enough to warrant a diagnosis. I'm just messed up - I don't have a severe chemical imbalance or structural abnormality.

And trust me, it's harder to deal with your issues when you can't go, "Well, I'm depressed, so that's why I act this way."


Mrr, peridium, I promise to try and get this all sorted out before August! :< College = new start = PLZ NOT TO BE BEING EMO.

Comments

[shuraiya.livejournal.com]

...you're starting college this year? WOW. How time flies!

[serindrana.livejournal.com]

XD I know! It's been, what, four years?

BTW, I totally still lurk-read your journal~ Your posts about religion are awesome :D

[shuraiya.livejournal.com]

YES WTF

Awww, yay! I read yours, too. I'm just lazy and suck at commenting. Thank you! I'm glad you enjoy them!! :D

[zsleepingdragon.livejournal.com]

Just my two cents... I never trust any doctor who pushes depression, anxiety meds... EVER! If the dose is wrong... or if it's totally the wrong meds it causes terrible side effects that make your moods and crap ten times worse then what they were before. I know that personally. I was once put on an antianxitey medication. Two days latter my roommate had to drag me out of my room that I had partically barriaced myself into. Thankgod his mom is a doctor and figured out the problem. Oh, and I was fired from my job when another med I was taking caused my sleep patterns to screw up so badly that I wouldn't sleep for two days then pass out cold randomly. Yup that was fun and I haven't taken a drug for those problems since and been much happier.

At anyrate I'd say take things one day at a time. From how little I know you, you seem to be in a rather stressful peorid of life. Soon enough you'll be off at college where you'll be so busy that it's crazy and have so much free time you don't know what to do with yourself. Actually it was pretty nice if I remember right... Oh, and you get to graduate and lord knows how much stuff you have to do just to get a peice of paper :) If anything vent your heart out here.. in way you could say we're always listening!... or reading.... or something like that :)